Allison Rose is an Urban Contemporary Gospel Artist from West Palm Beach, Florida. We met Allison during the #JesusChristChallenge that we sponsored with Houston Soul Artist, n.e.r.d. Life by D'Vo. She has a beautiful voice. Like most people, Allison has had a rough upbringing and a tough journey following the Lord. When her parents divorced, it led her into a deep downward spiral. We are pleased to share the Journey of a Rose....
My whole EP, “Journey Of A Rose Vol. 1” literally captures my entire journey to
salvation. As a matter of fact, it took me a year to complete it because they weren’t
just songs that I was writing. I wrote most of the songs while crying out to
God in some low places . Sometimes we would have to stop recording and take a
break because the situations I found myself were so terrible that I
needed time to gather myself and recuperate. Each song has a story behind it. The
song “CONFESS” is the first song on the EP and rightfully so. It lays the
foundation of what my Journey to Christ looked like the majority of the time. It’s
basically about a cycle of sin I was stuck in for so many years being up and down
in my relationship with Christ. The song says, “Lord, I confess I’m a wreck , ITS
LIKE MY YES IS NO WHERE TO BE FOUND.”
That’s my favorite line in the song because, if I told you what my life was before I was completely saved, that line would sum it up. Though I was a HOT mess, my YES was still real; I still meant it, it was just lost in the noise of brokenness, rebellion and distraction.
My parents’ divorce left me with abandonment issues, feelings of inadequacy, fear of rejection, and a whole lot of anger.
As a result, I often sought validation through relationships, I tried to numb my pain by ignoring and burying it. I had a lot going on, and it was hard especially with the expectations that were on me because of my mother’s position in ministry. I
struggled to find my identity in Christ and develop a relationship with Him for myself. For so many years it was a cycle of ups and downs.
I was bitter and angry with myself, with my reality, and with God. I started getting into some dark beliefs and practices. It was the scariest place I had ever been. It was then that I cried out to God like I’ve never cried out before. He brought me to a place where I was desperate, broken, and I had no other choice but to give Him full control. If He didn’t snatch me up when He did, I probably wouldn’t be here today. I believe that God keeps us and delivers us for a reason. I am a survivor and I believe I have an obligation as a survivor to take what the enemy meant for evil, give it to God, and allow Him to use my VERY jaded past to bring glory to His kingdom.
A lot of the stuff I've dealt with, many people are dealing with it but nobody wants to talk about it. If we don’t talk about it we can’t heal, we can’t be delivered and we can’t be freed. My goal now is to share my story of how God took me from the state of brokenness despite my rebellion and disobedience and gave hope, joy, peace, He made me whole. He’s still working on me but I’m definitely better than I’ve ever
been in my entire life and so I owe Him my life. I’ve surrendered everything to Him
and the only desire I have is for Him to use me the way that He intends to.
My hopes are that people listen to Confess and be able to relate. People need to know that they’re not the only hot mess out here! We all are, but 1 John 9:1 says, “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”
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